Dint I give u enough time?
To know me from inside out
Guarding my belief so blind
A mistake that I always doubt!
No matter how hard I tried
Exploring the places u’ve been
Every nook and corner I cannot find
Empty space is what I’ve seen
Stressing the people around me
Screaming & shouting in the air
Wanting to hide the bitter truth
Confessing my love in despair
Without you I detest myself
Wondering the mess I am in
Each time I offer myself
Hopeless faith, is what I see within
Listening to the empty night
That deafens from within
Longing for your rescue
From this fear that I knew
My never lasting joy
By you it gets destroyed
Lasting for a brief time
Whenever u become mine
Once again in my gloomy night
Where you shine like a star
Craving for your true love
Even tho’ I know you’re far
But embracing my painful heart
Shrinking slowly, by my tears
Hoping one day you’ll cry for me
Weighing the sorrows burdened for thee
As u brush the hair from my face
Sweeping the desire within me
Yearning of your touch in a slow pace
Feeling the love I have for thee
The moments of our togetherness
Haunting deep down my mind
As you plant your kiss on my lips
I wish I could turn my life in rewind
I could feel the pleasure of you
Whenever you accompany me
Now feeling so lost without you
As you fly into oblivion like a bee
Awakened sweating in this horror
Weakened more by this emotion
Lonely darkness surrounding me
Left me panting in this dejection
Painful anger pricks my mind
Plunging me in these sorrows
Walking away leaving me behind
Like there will be no tomorrow
Wild tension and Depression
Leads me to this frustration
Frying myself in this sensation
Tearing me apart by this aggression
Dying for a calm peaceful sleep
Without a thought running deep
Lonely heart drenched in regrets
Let me rest, this is what I beg
Twisting and turning in my dream
Extracting my memories unwillingly
Resisting the disturbance bestowed
Repeating this nightmare brutally
Shutting my eyes escaping all
Fearing that you’d let me fall
Loving you blindly, losing my mind
My world’s spinning, I’m turning blind
When hurts reside in me
I have no way to escape
Trying to hide from this world
My heart bleeding, losing its shape
Trust you more than myself
Is what embedded in me
Even if killed by you one day
Never will it change, if left free
Slitting my heart to prove
The love preserved for you
Me and my God knows
No matter how far you go
Detesting me and my ownself
But never gave up my trust
Building my hope that one day
Believed by you, it’s a must!
Dunno how i lived widout you
Thinking I lived my life as whole
Not knowing you exist in me
Until you ripped my soul
If I had not felt the sparks
Sparks discharged by you
Burning me every second
Made me a living dead too
If this star did not strike me
Peacefully I would be in sleep
Unaware that you exist
Memories wouldn’t run so deep
But these are the ‘if’s
That I do not wish for
Loving you is what I want
Willing to suffer all life long
Never stopped thinking of you
Neither did i want to try
For loving you is heavenly bliss
Whether in pain or joy I cry
Never want to let you go
Baby, b’coz I am your shore
Why ever do you turn blind
By blaming everything on time
Realising what have I turned to
Death has always been in my mind
For your thoughts keep killing me
Hiding myself, no one can find
Whining within the enclosed walls
As though there is no escape
Not revealing the feelings for you
Faking my smiles when seeing your face!
Heart feels heavy when u avoid me
All I do is fighting for thee
Loving you is never my choice
Soul crying out your name by my voice
I feel happy when think of you
Expecting my desire to come true
But cruel fate is stopping us
Squeezing my heart by its crush
The constant ill-fate owns by me
Causing nothing but aches & pain
Loving you is out of my hand
Losing the ground where I stand
This has been a non-stop game
Piercing my heart when call your name
Hoping it will come to a halt
When there’s nothing for you to blame
If i had to smile to make you smile
Would cross this earth a thousand miles
Pretending the bitter tears I shed
Only known by Holy God of mine
Flooding in the pool of tears
Bearing in mind my destiny
Blurring my vision each night
Drenched in pain away to glory
A life born with unworthiness
Killing me and torturing me
Yet endured by this poor creature
This is how, life is meant to be.
But ill-fate hugs me wherever I go
Living for others, dying inside
Loving you is what I could do more
What is your name?
Why are you close to me?
Why don’t you leave me?
What is your reason to be?
Why are you there when I cry?
Why are you there by my side?
Are you real or just a game?
Is “Loneliness” they call your name?
Your company brings me smile
Your company brings me tears
Your company gives me joy
Your company gives me fear
Has God sent you to care for me?
Has God sent you to share with me?
How can I live in the painless land?
When you walk with me hand in hand
Never will I break your heart
Never will I tear you apart
But will follow you everywhere
Destined to me from the start
Awake in the frightful night
Drenched cold in this lonely world
Sudden thought had struck me
That I am not crying alone
Am I too naïve to understand
The love that you reserve for me
If not, would I take the blame
In order to make you happy
Missing your hug around me
My tears wetting your chest
If death is granted now to me
That would be my very best
I see the world thru ‘ your eyes
The beautiful world around me
The wonderful sunset & sunrise
More wonderful when it is thru’ thee
If I am a nerve in your brain
I would know all your wishes too
Would ask to God in my prayers
To make those wishes come true
If I am a slumber in your night
Would dream the dreams you do
Would fight the hell and heaven
To make your dreams come true
If I am the oxygen you breathe
Will know what makes you happy
In order to bring a smile on your lips
Willing to cross the valleys and seas
I can feel your thoughts
Which cries out to me
Deep down in my heart
Your love meant to be
The desires & passions we share
Has taken me far to you
The non-stop tears we bear
Had paved my way thru’
Wonderful intimacy we possess
Knows no limit like the sky
Isn’t it a beautiful thing?
Accompanying us side by side
Grateful for the ecstatic moments
Given by you so very dear
Dawn of this incredible love
Appeared to me so crystal clear!
My angel, don’t ever leave me
I’m confused, alone & carefree
Cruel darkness surrounding me
With blindness capture me totally
Hot fire has already died down
By the blow of gentle breeze’s howl
Left me wandering in loneliness
With painful sorrows, on my own
Sadness gripped my bleeding heart
Echoing your name in my ears
Melody of my love is fading
Grieves & tears is all I bear
Maddening silence captured me
Needing your warm embrace
Emptiness within, causing despair
Please make me whole again by your grace
Walking by the edge of life
Not knowing which side to fall
Hoping u would catch me on time
As I jump against the wall
Unaware of what awaits me
Closing my eyes as I drift
Fully relying on you, baby
Holding me is what u did
Constant confusion dwells in me
Do I deserve to be saved?
Willing to die a new death
For you, twisting in my grave
My ‘ideal’ love born from you
Helas! Did not allow me to die
Wanting to live for eternity
With you, darling, by my side
I have always felt on an alien street
Loneliness dragged me by its feet
With no one to save me in pity
I went mercilessly into this city
I tried with my existing effort
Failure seems to blindfold me
The harder I struggled for it
The deeper I felt into the pit
As days passed on into each day
Boldly I want to let go the strain
‘Nothing’ is the only result I gain
Thinking I have won your love
Remembering I live in devil’s den
Who snatched away my only heaven
The hurts I possess never ending
Where emotions & feelings exist
Wound on wound affects me more
Plunging my life into painful horror!
I’m destined to fight the sorrows
To love you peacefully tomorrow
Doubling my pains with yours
Silently weeping in the shore
Bearing heavily all the faults
The faults committed by you
To see the joy appearing on your face
Sleeping on knife I’m ready to do
Trying to believe your every smile
Sacrificing you I can never do
Deep sufferance is I always knew
Everyday dying in reality & dream
But can never see you go away
For you, my ultimate soulmate
Loving you is what I do all day
My heart worships you deeply
While my eyes says you betray me
My lonely soul cries out to you
What I see can never be
Killing me you never stop
Whipping me with the tear drop
Corrupting my feelings is your game
Becoz all you want is the fame
This though I know from the start
Yet I refused to listen my heart
Since you pierced with cupid’s arrow
Where my mind leads, I follow!
I wish to reverse my time
To get stronger when I meet you
To roll days I spent behind
And dodge away the arrows u threw
Have i missed out anything?
When u didn’t hear the song I sing
Is it becoz you are more grieved?
Everything abt me u refused to believe.
With your presence in my existence
Blindfolded you all that I do
I do not need a whole lifetime
To prove myself you are mine
As you detach from me every inch
Brings me closer to you my prince
Turning blind to your every move
The only way my love I can prove
Ready to lend you my shoulder
If a tear escapes your eyes
My warm chest will guarantee you
An embrace at every plight
Salty tears of mine burn me
Extracting themselves from my soul
Melting my heart as they flow
Projecting my love as they go!
Red fire of my memories
Memories of your loving face
The face that haunts me for eternity
Leaving me dumbfounded & dazed
My life, plunging to darkness
Enlightened only by your love
If not I’m haunted by visions
Circling me like the black doves
I want to be next to u all time
I want to be in love with u all time
I want to be yours all the time
I have known loving you
Tho’ you are far away long
I have known missing you
As this separation getting strong
Every night dreaming of you
Dreaming that u will stay
But in real my breathings stop
If you leave me for one day
Giving my everything for us
But will never give you up
With one leg I will stand
Just once to hold your hand
Waited for you with eternal love
Wanting to embrace you sweetheart
My man God sent from above
I love you with all my heart
Approaching you with my every part
But you paid no heed at all
Did not catch me when I fall
Deserting me when I waited
Blaming me when I’m wounded
Never have I stooped so low
Yet accepting the love u throw
In your arms I’ll lay my head
For death would turn out sweet
When it comes to be under your feet
Literally my soul taken away
Ripping off cruelly by you
My heart bleeding heavily
At last, I can see the heaven thru’
As the moon shines bright
With thoughts of you raised high
My heart skips a beat
From my lips escaped a sigh
The feelings brought by you
Melting the lover in me
The promises I always cling on
Forever it meant to be
Loving you is the most beautiful
Bearing the pain with a smile
Loved by you is the bonus
Achieved by me in 1000 miles
Walked-in by you into my life
Filling up the void in me
A true blessing in disguise
Attracting me like a bee!
If my soul is so transparent
My heart is crystal clear
With memories buried inside
Showing I cherish u so dear
Comforting you in my own way
Holding u one day I may
Protecting u always I do
Chasing ur fear before you knew
The tone, the moan most beautiful on earth
Are these the reason I love you?
Reasons within reasons meant to be true!
Even if I scan this world
Never will I find another you
Walking to end of this earth
Never will I love anyone than you
Silently my tears flow
To define my lonely pain
The suffering I endure
Silently pronouncing ur name
Silently I am hiding
Insolently within me
Silently not silent enough
Painfully I weep for thee
The silent nights I’m awake
With silent thoughts around me
Hoping no one should see
The silent tears I shed freely
A wounded heart I possess
Silently breaking apart
To reveal the grieves inside
Piercing me as sharp as dart
