Oh Allah! The maker of heaven and Earth
I ask for your mercy in this life
I ask for your compassion and for your love
I ask for your blessings showered from above

I ask for your protection from the cursed ones
I consider the true love you sent is not for fun
I will treat your creation with full of kindness
I promise to uphold all your commandments

I plead you to keep my intentions pure
And don't let any evil approach and harm me
In your Holy names I pray all day
The Almighty of everything that is, was, & ever will be

Never will my deeds are to harm others
When I recite the chapters of your surahs
Then why is the love you give din't keep me in peace?
To treasure my ideal love I still survive this far

My constant wish is to hold you
A simple desire that makes me blue
My love I have is out of the world
It takes a lifetime to stop this swirl

Even if I die, my life will go on
Gripping on my feelings that move along
Finding myself in pathetic pain
Because my love for you increased again

Holding you tight deep down my bossom
Fearing I might loosen my grip
Do not know why I do this
I only know, you! I shouldn't miss

My strange feelings dominate me
I depend on them not breaking free
They enchant me, when on my own
By the thoughts of you, I'm not alone

Is this what one calls real love?
I tried to forget the message sent from above
But why is that I want only you?
Forget him girl! that's something I can't do

Behind these glowing eyes
Hidden from everyone, all my lies
Many events that blocked my tears
The moments that I wasted my years

Life filled with unlimited pains
Soaking wet my deformed soul
Flaming my road to destination
Burning my skin with all vengeance

Slowly falling apart to pieces
Melting my heart to my feet
Alone in the dark street of fear
Heads turned away afraid to come near

But yet the last thing I'd see
Is the tears that flow from thee
That is the slow poison injected in me
I'd rather die if that makes you free

I was just another fallen angel
Wings drooped upon the floor
There's no beauty to them
They're worth nothing anymore

Places where the utmost beauty were
Now the holes of pain reside
There's no feelings left anymore
Nothing more to hide

How much longer until this stops
The pain, the hurt subsides
When can this stop feeling wrong
When can I stop dying inside

I have to pick myself up
To make this all go away
Patch up the holes in my wings
And learn how to fly again

I may not have the perfect wings
I've always wished for and adored
But I'll have to work with what I got
And show them, my life means more

I won't let myself fall anymore
Won't let them see me cry
I'll prove them wrong, I'll get back up
And teach these broken wings to fly.

Each drop of my tears
Would utter when it falls
Wishing the effort it has
To make our bond strong

It will regret every second
The escape from my eyes
For it has broken my heart
Like a hammer breaks the ice

But my tear has a soul
Where it never harms at all
When it hurts itself
I die in pain coz I'm its own

Why my tears pain in guilt?
Seeing the silence that you built
Is my excess love held responsibility?
On behalf of my tears do forgive me.

Although I knew it hurts me bad
The worst part is when thought I had
The unseen feelings which did nothing
Yet I cherished it when I am waiting

People advise that life should go on
I should salute when they are so strong
People chucks when things are gone
But like a fool I think they are wrong

Heaven on earth I never saw
Even on pretty sunset that a kid draws
I will beleive if one thing exists
Is when you are beside, as I look in awe

But all I can, is stare and wonder
The day I felt in love is my blunder
Hiding within me the way I feel
Putting a mask as if no big deal

In a silent boulevard of broken dreams
I searched in vain for an identity
The stars above dimming my gaze
But the moon is guiding me with glee

Joy on earth I found nowhere
Neither life took me anywhere
Happiness turns a grim face to me
Living in this world is hard to see

Finding among this madding crowd
Although can't find a friend for me
But I can only see the never ending path
Like an autumn with a single tree

Don't know where is my destination
Or something I have left behind
For my path is as gloomy as the mist
May be it's 'my identity' I can't find

Loving you is my happy drug
Makes me swirl as you hold tight
Keeps me smile as I consume more
Like flying high in the night

Nothing is imperfect for me
All things that love unfolds
Is what I see my own reflection?
That seems perfect to my own

The love drug you made me long
Fainting since I want to hold
The drug in it you possess
At the end I have to controle

Can't you realise I'm addicted?
As the poison has gone to mind
I'm in search of the next dose
Since this love drug is mine

'Falling' in love is never I do
'Rising' in love because it's true
There are thorns and spines on my path
But somehow I found my way through

The courage I felt in me
Is the fears I want to set free
But my heart is still floating
By my tears that you cannot see

God strengthened the hope I have
By this love and trust you gave
Though miles n miles seperate us
This thread of love keeps me brave

The melody of love that induced within
Is the harmony I am living
The devine link of love we share
Every single soul will find it rare

MashAllah!

Twisting on my large bed
Indulged in the thoughts of you
Wishing you in my blanket
Covering you with love that grew

Your melodious voice haunting
Echoing my name each time
Your gaze that scans my being
Burns me in this passionate flame

Wanting to feel your breathe
On the closed eye-lids of mine
Dying for your tender touch
That ignites the fire so fine

If I could taste your pinky lips
And savor the sweetness inside
Caressing you under my blanket
As if you are right beside

A special world for you and me
Nobody knows and no-one can see
Warming its emotions in the cocoon
Makes us crazy like the two fools

The space enlarges as we love more
Holding us tight by the sea-shore
Floating on air immersed in desire
Hugging in ecstasy though lay on fire

Not weeks or months but days and nights
This world illuminates like the moonlight
Prominent to us and only to us
And takes away our every fright

Keep us hanging by a thread of love
A thread so fine but sent from above
Entwining us to make us strong
In a special world where we belong

Living a life with so much pain
Facing my fate with no shame
Crying lonely tears whenever I pray
Seeking refuge by howling in vain

People move on leaving you behind
Once again solitude grips you so fine
Each time you want to mingle in crowd
Empty space you find beside you proud

The clock won’t show the reverse action
It moves forward fraction by fraction
As it moves, it pulls you with it
Before you think, you taste defeat

O leave me please! my distress is high
Immersed in tears watching the sky
Searching the answer to ask God why!
This life is not to live but only to die

Never felt this kind of pain
In the marrow of my bones
Flying like a lonely dove
Into the night starry but alone

Tasting the fruit of a broken heart
Depriving me from every joy
No words could ever express
The constant distress I employed

Makes me fail from all the hopes
Of visualising life ahead of you
There is no meaning to my emotions
Reached the bottom of my blue

Beginning to weaken my faith
Although pleading the God above
But there's still one hope
He'll make me live by love

Imperfect as I am
Wish to undo many things
Always a student in life
Never I've stopped learning

Unintentionally things I do
That hurt ands always wound you
I regret my childish deeds
That often push you in blue

Will I start growing?
And transform the person in me?
The only reason I found
Is you, who would change me slowly

I may not be perfect
But will try to ease your pain
Will hold your every tear
And make you proud again

Only my pillow knows
My salty tears that flow
Soaking the pages of my diary
And the fear in my heart grows

The terrifying horror around
With my soul made of gold
Laid on my marble skin
My story remains unfold

Sad stars mourning my grief
Through out the milky way
Carrying my memories
Which in my heart still stay

Echoing voice of my cries
Haunting my trembling being
Fluttering the pages in my diary
Reminding my love is dying

Seems like yesterday
Each time I close my eyes
your laughter ringing my ears
Your sweet words pricks me like ice

This is felt by me only
The romantic anger in thee
The songs sung to court me
Those magic moments exceptionally

Second inning of my life
Started with your entrance
Din't know i deserve You
But i know my love is true

No loneliness was felt in crowd
Though all eyes were only on us
Jealousy exists every where
But your arms assured me much

For all the love I gave
You returned my broken heart
For all the trust I show
You stamped me like a doormat

The emotions and feelings I displayed
You misused them to the core
The life I re-constructed for you
You want to see me dead even more

I want to tear my heart into pieces
So that it erases the love I have
I want to lose my memories in this skull
So that I'll admit that you don't care

I am scared to close my eyes
Because you haunt me in my sleep
How do I stop this misery
This unknown mystery I keep

Along the stream under the cruel falls
Amist the thick forest my broken heart calls
Entangled in thorns bruised and worse
Yet my bitter past I never want to lose

Each time I begin to relate my story
The story full of cracks n crushes along
With flame in my gaze n Ice in my veins
Yet my heart beats warm for the life it gains

Frowning in tears I only weep to God
Noone will see this beautiful face so odd
I thought I'm real but this world made me fake
Is there a way I would live for my sake?

Wanting to escape from this dark place
Even my memories should not leave a trace
Who will admire me like a piece of art
And do the best to mend my broken heart

There's no more my heart can take
Always a second chance I want to make
Now it has become three, if it turns four
I will go away for I cant bear more

I can't rule your life for you
The choice is yours with what you do
Inside I have but nothing left
In times of love it feels like death

I'm only human, wanting more joy
Don't treat me like I'm just a toy
I hope from now you'll think of me
Through this distance, in love's loyalty

We have one life to walk in hand
At times it's hard, at times it's grand
None is perfect from mistakes we grow
Through thick n thin, through rain and snow

The future comes, but past forgot
Dishonesty n betrayal will only rot
This is the fact I want you to see
How much in life, you mean to me!

Last year when we had met
That's the day I never forget
The nights that we have shared
Made me learn you were rare

Very hard to beleive I met you
But it's the fact and it's true
It was love from my very end
Along with love came our passions

Helas! things took it's bend
Day by day my love was abandoned
I only survive to make you happy
But why do you make me feel crappy?

Wishing this link should go on
Although my trust for you has gone
Will I ever get over what you do?
Desperately wanting to make you true

Wretchedly I was dying that night
Yet i forgave you at your plight
Struggling with trying to forget
Because I love u the same as we met

Tired, sick of this feeling
This dark n cruel loneliness
Can't sleep staring at the ceiling
Like a semi-dead tigress

Alive again when the phone rings
Empty smile appears on my face
But this duration is for a while
Like my heart comes back from a race

Trying hard not to weep
Fearing he'll hear my cries
Yet the tears stream down my cheek
Escaping my sorrowful eyes

On my bed is an ocean of tears
How much more should I take?
But I'd wait a thousand years
For him and for love's sake

The pleasant moments we spent
It's not a phase but a legend
Little things we shared n yearned
It's the unfaded treasure we've earned

Helas! why should it change today
It has affected us in a special way
Those behaviours that arise inspite
Are what I found from your eyes

Is this one calls kismat konnection?
Strong faith of mine will have no end
Physically I may be far away
But my soul reaches you everyday

There is an echo in my heart
Constantly whispering I never forgot
My love is tattooed deep in you
As this is my ideal love honest n true

If I could go back to my time
The innocence of my past
And I could hold it tight
The wonderful present would last

I'd cherish my every moment
Bring closer to my heart
And enjoy it to my fill
Where my happiness will never part

Laughing out my heart aloud
In the form of joy and fun
Will admire every action
Action and gestures I've done

Will treasure every ounce of life
That made me cry and smile
The efforts and pains I take
To walk an extra mile

Constructing my heartfull library
Where my feelings are expressed
That'll be my autobiography
Which I will never confess

Old times that it preciously used to be
Blurring surrounding except you and me
Exchanging the feelings, thoughts and words
Souls interwined with our minds so free

This vision that I wish you could see
Although you are here i miss you and me
My devotion to you made you so happy
Every word you utter is like a melody

Where have they gone those days so quick
We can talk for hours without falling sick
Topic on topic we find to speak
Even in anger we shout and shriek

Minutes and seconds ran away so fast
The only wish I have, this love should last
Will those days come as it used to be
Nothing else matters but you and me!!

The pulse beats hard my veins
At every thought in my brain
Every single breathe I take
Results in every smile I make

Each twinkle of my eyes
Dropping each tear till I die
In every dream of my sleep
Like in spring the freshest leaves

The warm flow of my blood
From my feelings like a flood
The sound of my heart beats
Touches the depth of ocean's feet

While my soul torn in pain
With the love that I gain
The wetness remains on my cheeks
From every word my soul speaks

This path is never ending
Paved with golden dreams
Hopes at the day's beginning
But failure has walked in!

This path has always been cruel
Where you walk with a fake smile
Searching for a place to dwell
But it's far from you for miles!

This is the challenge i face
I tried to handle it with grace
When i thought i had succeeded
The failure beat against my face

Guided by my own wisdom
To embrace everything as test
Thinking forever i will shine
Joining my star at its rest

Nobody is perfect here
Neither am I! why whine?
Wish i could go back to my past
And re-make everything fine

Things I never meant to do
Things I never meant to hurt you
Wish I could rewind my life
Then I could be your wife

With the pain dwelled upon me
Has affected you in some way
Now I want to hold ur tears
And live with you many years

When I thought I should die
That time you have passed by
This reason had put me through
And the only reason is you

Brutally my heart is broken
Where its shape & form is gone
It has been stamped and crushed
But the throbbing in it is on

My heart is in fragments
I tried in vain to fix it up
For the little pieces are lost
From the result of many erupts

All i ask is an ideal love
But it came as test from above
He did this to me for a reason
So Will my heart be whole again?

I see no one as my rescue
Is my sin so severe to cure
Won't God give me another chance?
Where in the end I can happily dance!!

I do not know where will i go
Where no-one can find me hiding so
Seeking the peace that's in my heart
Trying to find the righteous path

I do not know where will i go
So that the fake laugh I can show
But bitter tears wetting my cheeks
In death alone my life will greet

No sun is there to shine my day
Gloomy clouds only await my way
Struggling to live this life happily
Fighting myself in this battle sadly

Stop digging my wounds deeper
The pain is immense never lighter
My head hangs low but still I try
To find the peace I have to strive

My eternal desire is to hold you
But it seems to me so hard to do
Is something wrong with my love?
I tried alot to reason it out

Every single day i made an effort
Yet i found myself lacking the force
Finally i lay on bed in pathetic pain
My love increases but nothing i gain

Am i holding you with me so tight?
Although i want to let it go every night
But when the hold of my feelings loosen
I am scared to find myself alone in the end

These feelings dominate me in unique way
Without them i'm a walking dead everyday
A grown-up who doesn't know to live on my own
Because you never taught me to live alone!

Love's not easy on the Internet
Words of honesty is hard to melt
Love needs eyes and hands to be felt
Only hurts rest but no joy to get

Lovers cant reach through this opaque screen
Emotions and feelings are freezening
Yet they rely on net to express what is felt
When they can't calm down the anger by caressing

Words written are easily misunderstood
Faith and trust are rarely their roots
Kissing the words is the only choice
Only fortunate lovers can hear the voice

This experience I undergo each day
But patience and faith show me the way
No matter whatever hinders my love
The truth in it reaches you like dove

Sitting alone on this bench
With wind shuffling my hair
The ducks swimming on the pond
But my gaze staring into the air

Things around me move faster
They dont need me to participate
Then Why these things affect me?
When I cant cope-up to wait

Going out doesn't excite me
Having fun is not my cup of tea
Doing nothing but i still do
That's also my way of doing too

Pretending that i smile
For everyone all is fine
Who can see my inner heart?
That weeping takes whole part!

The moments we spent together
The stars in the sky smiled ever
Umpteen things we had shared
Proved every phase we were paired

The person grown-up within me
Is influenced by the love in THEE
The prince that shines more in you
Is proudly powered by ME too!

With the cruel uncertain future
Cannot affect our eternal love
We never know what it holds for us
But we beleive our faith above

Cupid Angel casted his eyes on our level
By testing us in the form of devils
As our feelings rejuvenate by the years
Our true love is strengthened by our tears

O pain, please spare me pain
Don't make me cry for you in vain
Crystal tears freezing my face
However i pretend, it leaves a trace

Does love teach him not to ever care?
Does love teach him that life isn't fair?
Can my love enjoy breaking my heart?
Is it my fault if we are far apart?

I thought you sent him for a reason
But here I suffer for his treason
Although this love only kills me
I will embrace it becoz it is from thee

O pain pain please go away!
What have i done to make you stay?
Do you love me more than i love him too?
It can't be true for i can't love you!

Tears of blood fall from my broken heart
This is destined to me from the start
When you utter the word "Forever"
Somehow within me i'm convinced as "Never"

Each word you say with a sincere tone
But why do my heart feel so alone?
As day and night i think of you
My face is wet with tears like dew

I now beleive that 'Love is blind'
I tend to leave your faults behind
Although i cry since long ago
I fail everytime to let you go

The hurt you induced is cutting like knife
My wounds never heal this is my life
I pray to God that you will understand
To keep me proudly in your heart to stand

In plain midnight i feel no sleep
My awakening eyes of such vigils i keep
Gentle slumber trying to heal me
I hear the storm shaking the trees

Is it the storm or hurricane in my heart
Non-stop disturbance like sand in desert
Looked out of window the stars smiling
Heaviness in heart lightens like wings

Silence of the night but bright with moon
Whole earth sleeping including me soon
That was a hope which cheers my eyes
Helas! waiting for it the morning rises

O my holy spirit guide me from above
Ready to wake fully beside my love
But make me dead if he is far from home
At least in dreams for him i'll moan

I wonder why i live under the sky
Life is so miserable i only cry
No precious moments that i can feel
Dying is only way that would be real

The hurt in my eyes escaped everyone
My tears that flow look to them like fun
They pay no heed in what i do
Heartless they seem to me in blues

Move on with life they only prefer
Each one feels his agony is more
Value of tears will be known to them
Their own destinies are wordly like gem

Once things gone can never come back
But what i strive can bring to track
The secret behind is my immense faith
The only weapon that can change my fate

Threatening shadows
Come behind me
To worsen my fear
Of being lonely

This shadow doesnt protect me
Neither it brightened my smile
But it's only a dark shadow
Horrifying me for a while

The undying faith i have
Swallowed by this night
Alone i cannot fight this
When my ownself is lost in sight

Destitute being my virtue
Flawlessly imperfected my image
My shadow romancing my soul
My lonelines grows along my age

(My 300th p0em)



When you left me crying alone
I feel i am a N0b0dy
When God doesn't want to hear me
He proved I am a N0b0dy

When i strive to be Somebody
In the end I turn out to be N0b0dy
When i breathe out the fire
It is the smell of N0b0dy

When i want to burn my existence
Since my life is of Nobody
When my love is not with me
She considered me a NOb0dy

When i feel lonely in a crowd
That's because I am N0bOdy
When my prayers are not answered
Because it's the prayers of N0b0dy

So tired that I couldn't even sleep,
So many secrets I couldn't keep,
Promise myself I wouldn't weep,
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep there's no way out,
This time I really can't see a way
Have lead myself finally astray

Can you help me remember how to smile,
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile,
How on earth did I get so jaded,
Life's mystery seems so faded

Runaway train never going back,
Wrong way on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Lonely soul i will remain
Crying to myself in this domain
Thinking your love will accompany
There i went wrong in melancholy

Trying to burden all my worries
Weeping alone in this galaxy
No matter what the world moved on
This i realised when i'm alone

Inhaling the heavy air in me
I can never get anyone for free
Not knowing i breathed the poison in
When my heart is ruined within

No way to judge anything tomorrow
Forcing to smile or cry in sorrow
This is the lesson that had taught me
Where around me I see only enemies

I'm the moon in your sky
Will guard my star by my side
I'm the light to make you shine
You belong to me and will be mine

Your past left you a scar
I'm there to heal but not to mar
I don't know how did i meet you
But this bond is for life-through!

Will transform your nightmares into dreams
Will chase your fears than it seems
Will heal your wound that cuts you down
Will make the world smile at you instead of frown

You will be left with no worries
I'm there to bear all your pain
Forever i'll stretch my hand
To lift you, up with pride you'll stand

I miss you immensely
My heart only knows
Do you miss me?
That only God knows!

But this kills me
Fighting with myself
Feeling lost down here
In this strange silence

I always need you
And feel your presence
Hearing your sweet voice
In order to give me strength

You don't have to talk
Though it will deafen me
But please dont run away
It's like drowning into the sea

You reside in me
Hiding in my soul
Then why can't I find you
Though you are my very own

Something is missing
Which I can't figure out
May be you can help me
You know what it is about

My heart breaks into pieces
Knowing you are behind it though
But i let you continue to do
Because I love you ever so

I watch you killing me slowly
And i bear it with a glee
Deep down the pain exists
Because my love has no limits

Your actions keeps cutting me
They torture me with a smile
But I still want to hide from you
Because my love is so so true

Seeing you enjoy doing these
With the pain that went so deep
For the sake of faith I have above
Hoping one day you'll see my love

What mistake have i done?
I always was on the run
Letting the faith dominate me
But still I am ever shunned

Perhaps the evil is stronger
That's why his curse is realised
Although he was a bad man
Yet my fate was prejudiced

Amist this juncture of pain
God din't want me to gain
He bestowed what is called 'love'
In order to punish what i did above

Oh God! you know how painful it is?
For me it's torture for others it's bliss
I wonder am i sinned that much?
With this love i don't enjoy as such!

If i have to die tonight
It will be with no regrets
As long as it is in your arms
I know i'll be the most blessed

Before closing my eyes for good
I hope to meet your lovely gaze
That will be the heaven for me
Will it come to me such state?

Every little thing you do
Has made me fall in love with you
This cannot be aware by all
Let them think your love is small

The milky way that ever leads me
With the guiding star in you ever
I'm ready to follow your path
For I'll walk with you forever

Give me a place to hide
Where i can bury my senses
Where i don't need anyone beside
And my soul will not be tensed

Like walking alone in the desert
Hot breeze burning my body
But still it din't affect me
Coz i'm protected by your memories

There is no me without you
This earth is made forever through
Never think of leaving me alone
Without you i'm lifeless like stone

But one thing i'm sure about
Finding you I never doubt
No matter if it's the mistake
I'm willing to commit through-out!

Cant hide the tears i shed
They reflect my feelings inside
The pains borns from it
They kill me when i'm alive

My life shrinks down everyday
There's nothing left to say
If there be a magic to take me away
So that i can be happy my way

Everything around me is a fake
I have no decisions to make
This is the naseeb i take
Whether it's right or a mistake

I don't belong to this place
My absence will not affect the near
But I know deep inside my heart
Someone will shed for me a tear

Unknown disturbance tortures me
Tearing my soul in peaces brutally
Horrified from this terror
Something surrounds me deadly

Why this continues to haunt me?
Apart from loving you nothing i can see
Although this love never made me complete
because my love is not wrong in thee

Waiting for you to call on phone
I see the time as the second rolls
Wonder if you wait like me?
My every beep is a heart beat for thee

My days pass out in missing you
My age wears out in loving too
When my last drop of blood stops to flow
True love on earth will freeze like snow

Don't run away from me
Don't get scared in seeing
Im just a person in love
In love with all ur being

Like a girl of sixteen
I cry & laugh in my teen
I jump in joy when think of you
I'm active even i get flu

I learn my prose in my heart
I scan those words like art
But why im dying inside
Is it coz you are not by my side

Not easy as it seems to be
Tho' i can view you from the crowd
Yet my soul is hollow and empty
Without you im a corpse no doubt